A Soul Wide Awake

 

Dawn breaks not with trumpets and horn
but a slow adagio
of soft sunlight
and even softer curves
as the hard corners of life
are smoothed away
in the innocence of new birth
waking us to a world without sin

With innocence we stretch
to the far borders of the bed,
emotions overpowering the touch fingertips
that play in the sunlight on our skin.

Love is the property of
saints, and children and angels, yet
as we hold each other close
we know their joy of being alive.

we wake without sin
or what might have beens,
yet as the world creeps in through
the bedroom window,
we become shy, trying to hide,
covering ourselves as
sin slips through the door.

We make risqué jokes,
fondle each other provocatively,
much too much, and much too loud
to really be believed
it was only later
that our faces changed
to a hard and focused beauty
and pinpoint awareness of predatory eyes.

I call later that week,
not to soon and not too late,
she's going out with the girls (to brag).
*I added the last bit, I hope you don't mind*
I did my bragging the other night
so I stay home feeling empty and blue

She calls, f*ck be cool
she's been thinking of me and I say me too

Oh, you've been thinking about you?

God she's funny and hot

Dinner at an expensive restaurant
and even more costly bottle of wine,
trying to impress and hoping I succeed.
We wind up at her place with an invitation in,
we're both playing it cool and then I snap,
gambling all on chance and fate.

I don't want to play games, not with you.
We had something special but now it's been lost,
I don't know what it was or how to get it back,
but I want to try... with you

We wake up to sunlight caressing our eyes,
everything soft and young and new.

good morning love
... good morning
why are you staring?
... Oh, I didn't know I was, just looking at you
perv... spying on me in my sleeping?

a razz-berry escaping her lips
then a short laugh

why?
she says with wistful eyes

My reply to soft to hear,
spoken with eyes
and not with lips.

You were fast asleep
but your soul was wide awake